Crash Into Me- Dave Matthews Band

i'll be your dixie chicken,
if you'll be my Tennessee lamb,
we can walk together,
down in Dixieland.

i can't believe i spent a saturday at home.
daryl they all went to watch 40 year old virgin today, and i already watched, so. hai. then again my tummy hasn't been too good.

yesterday was really fun though, cuz mal's back! went out with the foursome and sherman, jeremy etc. gosh you won't BELIEVE how much weight mal and darren lost!
darren is like BONY now!
we asked him how he did it, and he described a typical day of surviving on a char siew bao. that's how. and the jogging, but still.
a bao a day keeps the flabs away.
here's proof:


it's mal!

good thing that mal's sense of humour didn't go away like his weight. :)

and i love this picture:


sweeeeet. i love my buds.

so yea, the horror came when i had the urge for "the runs" while we were on the bus home. i was like giddy, breaking out in cold sweat and turning pale. jin alighted with me and we dashed for the toilet at gleneagles. it was really bad. i felt like i was gonna puke and faint and shit all together. and yet, it just seemed like all these happened for a good reason.

jin and i cabbed home after my long stint in the toilet. she sorta talked to me about my alcohol problem, which is why i felt everything happened for something else. she's prolly the only person who can talk to me, even lecture me about such stuff and i'd actually listen.
i still remember her exact words:

"it's bad enough that you have to suppress it in front of us, but now that you're showing it in front of us, there must be a reason that you are."

those words kept running throughout my mind today.
i guess the fact that i suddenly asked for alcohol in the middle of our group outings sorta upset them. i don't normally do that. it's sorta like, if you're smoker, you don't smoke in front of your friends. same for me.

i know i use the word 'alcoholic' on myself sometimes, but am i really?
i went to take this american health association test. it says that i have a drinking problem.
but i don't drink a lot. i don't even drink everyday already, and each time i do it's no more than a bottle of beer or a few drinks.
am i? i'm starting to think that i'm using the 'a' word too casually.

the big dOnut is coming up! so you all taking it, all the best :)

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